I do this pseudo manic-depressive thing where I go through extreme highs and lows in self image. I’ve managed to define myself around the things I’m good at, and sometimes I get beaten at the things I’m good at. So I feel like I’m shit. Because I’m not the best, and my entire self image depends on other people.
I’m keeping my eye on it.
At the beginning of this year I was reminded how essential it is to be someone on your own. Maybe this Tumblr should stay follower-less. Maybe this becomes a messy list that then becomes who I am.
I can’t keep being a 16 year old boy who gets A’s in Drama, Literature and Chemistry.